In the mood for.....

断点
".....我吻过你的脸
虽然你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过的好一点
断开的感情线,
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的蜜语甜言 ...."

原点
".... 离开的时候
只听见沉默
除了沉默
我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉
别总觉得对我亏欠...."

远远在一起
"....还是爱着你
只是我们之间有了距离
远远爱着你
就算不能够再靠近
同样的天空下总会有你...."

简简单单
".....只想简简单单的爱过
我还是我
简简单单的想过
就不算白活
简简单单的疯过
被梦带走
当故事结束之后
心也喜欢一个人寂寞...."

Cry it Out?

Feeling:

The Truth Always Hurts.

I choose to be shielded from the truth.
Keep it away from me. I will feel better.

Tell ourself to be strong.
But behind that brave front, how does one sees the shattered pieces inside.
who's there to piece them up.
Just when it beings to heal, it shattered again....

Are we trying so hard to hide our emotions, such that we have forgotten how to shed those tears?

I wished those tears could roll.
Maybe i will feel better.
But they refused...
Have they dried up?
Or am i already devoured of emotions.....

Laugh it out..?

May 11
Feeling
Four months after my company's buyover a rival company, today's teh retrenchment "exercise" as circulated in an email memo by our HRD.

While, news of the retrenchment already started spreading week sbeofre..
Can't believe that i will be going thru a "BIG OVERSEAS" company retrenchment exercise on my first job since graduation.

Is that gonna be some big Hoo-haa about it??
Afterall, how many people get to be in a company where retrenchment exercise takes place? especially when now its not during the down-turn of our "oh-so-robust" economy, where wage increments are even in plans by the NWC....

Many peopoel wished they would be the one retrenched. as some of my auntie-colleagues put it on the eve of retrenchment...
"Hope i Kena TOTO tmrw"
wait a minute... thrus got TOTO meh??
they were referring to retrenchment letter.
i.e. for those who worked for donkey years, imagine they are paid 1.5 of their monthly drawn income for every year of service they held with the "Company"!
lets do some maths here...

lets say u worked for 10 yrs, which "surprisingly" was quite common among most staffs there,
and ur gross pay is say avg 1.5k (lets just take clerical staff only...)
so if u kena the letter,
Your TOTO price will be 1.5 X 10 X 1.5 = 22,5oo.00 (Twenty Two Thousand OVER)!

Isnt that the same as striking TOTO???
Imagine you are on the executive position...
or even managerial level?? Its like strikin gthe ANG BAO TOTO??!!!!

when people were slowly called up to HRD in the morning, many senior staffs "strike" the TOTO... One was my former boss, which was rather sad for some of us, though we would kinda expect it...he's being with teh bank for over 20 years, and worked his way up... brught about note-worthy changes to his previous dept...

Well, it was not a teary event, just some surprises and well-wishing... infact, it wasnt a really major retrenchment... politically correct grammar to us woule be a "stramlining" of operations staffing.

My current Dept wasn't affected at all, Since they were already very short-handed (the reason for me being transferred ) and in Chaos since Day 1 of the merger.

Sigh...
Though now i can really understand what the importance of "Job security" holds in our textbooks back during those schooling days...

I missed School...
I missed the the life as an under-grad....

I issed those times...
Missed those communal hall-living...
If I could asked genie to turn back time, it would be the year June 2001 - June 2004