ok, that's it...

Hmm.. well, my mind was kinda made up before the "face-off"
But i just didnt rehearse what is supposed to come out of my mouth for that moment in time.

You know, when caught in the situation itself, what you "rehearsed" or been running through your mind, just doesn't go in synch with the audible sound that came out from the mouth.

But then, I hope the message was subtle but with a bit of hint....
Cos i didnt want to make it sound like an outright rejection/turn-down.
Afterall, I "survived" hours of "self-promotion" and "selling" before getting me this far.
Didnt want to trashed it with just one word, "no".

Coming to a decision is afterall, not a bad thing.
At least it took a load off my mind.
Burdened with the "what ifs" and "what may"...

Well, just live with my (one of many) motto(s) in life, "No Regets"

Time for "greener Pasture" hunting again!

a sms

Gotten a sms from coach yesterday, which really cheers up my day for a moment.

"I have registered u rowing for pasir ris this coming reggatta. There 8 more people also"

I'm not a fantastic rower, and my Time-trial definitely did not hit the top 50% of the men's team either.
But coach has been giving me quite alot of opportunites this year. Encouraging me to take different roles on the boat. Pacer, mid-pack and even try coxing in races.

I've really learnt alot, and gain alot from him.

Art of Rejection

The Art of Rejection.

Why wasn't there any featured articles in newspaper, magazines, write-ups on mastering the art of rejection?

How to reject gracefully?
How to reject and yet leave a 后路behind.
how to reject without hurting relationship?
How to reject without beeing awkard?
How to reject "amiably"?

I suck at that...

A change woudl do you good

kinda sad when u read the below news headlines
"Titanic survivor sells mementos to pay for (nursing) care"

96 year old Millvina Dean
"Dean is selling the suitcase and other Titanic mementos to help pay her nursing home fees"

+++++++++++++++++++++

2 years, 说长不长，短也不短。

2 years in the same company, doing the same function.

2 years rowing, in the same water, but within different like-minded groups.

A consolation its not been stagnant since day 1, but progress is slow.

I see jumps in leaps and bounds, and I learnt much more, and in the process, gained much much more.

The environment is changing.

People hve to change to adapt to environment.

all thebig talks about "改变环境来适应自己" are just advertisement slogans and gimmicks only "possible" in the reel world.

Let's be realistic, 改变自己来适应环境 sounds more logical in the real world

time to read between the line in the lyrics.

It might just be really good..

"A change would do you good"

Crossroad

Crossroad once again?

I thought that was something for the "privilege" fews.
Deciding which path to take.

Seems like I'm hitting yet another here..
One that is more complicated.
Work, and non-work related.

Would pursuing something else now be an appropriate time?
Would making a change now be a wrong move?

Would the decision to change in the near future be something that I may look back in regret?

But I know its not anything on impulse when the day comes.

The enthusiasm is dwindling with each passing day.
Have dreamt the impossible, and garnered the near impossible.
Dreams came true (partially?).
It evolves because the mind, the heart is tired.
It's sick of it? to put it crudely.
It yearns for a change.
A different focal point.
A different goal.
A much simple life.
Maybe a more fulfilling and self-satisfying one.
More time for oneself,
To slow down the pace, and take a look clearly at the surroundings.
It's still holding on, til the day comes... counting down...
26 days?

will things change?
Or will i still be heading teh same road down?

same same but different

Spot the 'Real" Team RBS..

Not too hard i presume...

Copyright infringement? Right, My foot...

Today, I thought "somebody" played a trick on me when i saw an email Subject header:
"Notification of Alleged Copyright Violation " from Facebook

Apparently, it's not a joke....
Copyright Infringement..... Well done, out of my many videos there, just 2 particular Video infringe copyright?

Definitely not becos of background Audio, cos i have more other videos with many other songs in it, that didnt suffer the same fate as these 2.
It really doesnt really take a genius to know how these 2 video ended up this way.
See what these 2 have in common?
Btw, I am proud to say I owned these videos, cos i created them myself, something that someone who can't do it, and rather file a copyright infringement.

Well, Just FYI, You may wished to lodge another Copyright infringment complain for my videos in Youtube?
Be my guest.

Good laugh...

How do you define "Optimism"?
A banker who irons five shirts on Sunday.

Q: What is the one thing Wall Street and the Olympics have in common?
A: Synchronized diving!

I had a cheque returned earlier.
"Insufficient Funds"
Mine or the banks?

What's the difference between Investment Bankers and London Pigeons?
The Pigeons are still capable of making deposits on new BMW's

What's the difference between an investment banker and a large pizza?
A large pizza can feed a family of four.

"Sometimes we need to train alone.

Feel the pain in private, then make them pay in public"

还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记

还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定

然而当爱最后的出口是分离

我会这么相信

有个人梦见上帝,上帝说可以满足他一个愿望。

那人拿出地球仪,说要世界和平，
上帝说: 太难了,换一个吧.

他又拿出自己的照片说要自己变成绝世大帅哥,
上帝沉思了一下说,

麻烦你把那个地球仪拿来我再看看......

What comes down must go up!

Wheee......!!
Finally!
We see a sea of GREENS across the Global stock Market!!

After like Trillions were wipe out..
yeah, Trillions.. means how many zeros?
1,000,000,000,000,000.00
Isit huh?
Serioulsy , I also not sure.. cos the Calculator dont permit so many zeros, and trades I ever came across was at most in yards? (billions)

All Central Bank finally stepped in.
What this means?
The final heores/heroine that rescued the financial turmoil, is non-other than....... *drum-roll*
yes, you tax-payers. *clap* *clap* * clap*
The commoners and salaried individuals like you and myself.
That's where all the Billions $ bailout came from.

The lender of last resort = Tax-payer.

More GREENS please for the week....

Market has gone down long and bad enuff. Time to go up yeah?
What goes up must come down, what goes down must come up hor.....

A Moment like this . . .

12 Oct 2008

One event, Four Person VICTORIES.

I Did it in this life-time!

Never occurred to me that I will ever take on Quadthlon, not even ever dreamt of attempting a Triathlon before this.

After today, at Last, I can be proclaimed as a Quadthlete (without having to go thru the Traithlon phase... ahhaa..)

And the best part about this achievement, is a managed to complete it with a decent timing.
2hr 21 mins.
Not sure abt position, but I would be anxious to know....

Well for this little life of mine, I have been there, done that , a taste of a Finisher for a Quathlon event.
This means,
We are now all certified as being a Swimmer at sea, A roller-blader, a cyclist, and a runner.

It's really an eye opener and a sight to behold, witnessing fellow participants pressing on to complete the kilometres of blading/cycling/running despite they are very much amateur. A true test of mind over body.

They may look clumsy, but they perserve. *respect*
Some people fell and had bad bruise on legs, face, shoulders, but they pressed on to complete all events.
*respect*
some unfortunate events suffered a crash agst cyclist and had to pull out.

Some had their bike chains fell off, dashing their dreams to complete the race with personal best timing.

Without ryhme or reason, this song chorus just pops into my mind in my last leg of the four event.

Maybe that's what pushes me on, when i can barely walk properly after the firt 1km after dismounting from the bike, I tell myself to at least a real slow jog (40sec/100m)My thighs are like really tight, i can hardly stand straight, thanks to the crunching position from cycling on a racer.

Its really a very different kind of race.
A race to overcome oneself,
a race against oneself,
a race for a moment like this.

D-Day soon....

OK, Time for Equipment check for the "Big-Day" tmrw.
First up, the swim leg... Need my trunks and reliable goggle to make sure no sea water seep thru into the eyes....

Then comes the blading part, new pair of "Big Wheels", well90mm, almost the biggest you can get (Size Matters!), of cos there are those bigger one with Air-pump tires! but errr.. no need bah....

and yep, matching coloured Helmet(compulsory) for the blades and the bikes. As the saying goes, (in Hokkien): "Su Lang, Mai Su Sey!" i.e. Lose people, but dont lose Style
Coincidentally, the bike i borrowed from Chen Qian (last min) happens to be red and White! matches the blades... !!
Got this pair of cycling/blading top last min for comfort and quick dry (as it claims) from WOS last min.. Great Bargain, cos Citibank got 20% Discount!!Hmm.. the only matching item this pair of Blading/cycling tights can go along with, is my reliable Livestrong shades! And the Design not bad too... =) And last but not lest, the running leg, cheap and good, that suited me just nice, the SAF New Balance! The brand/make that gets me those Silvers and Gold in IPPT. So, it shouldnt fail me in this 6km run, i presume....
Ok, "season" colour for this race, Red and White rules....
suddenly, I was reminded a fren of mine (a team mate to be specific), recently got something very Red and white too.... hahaha... Should T-loan from her... lol...

Kaoz... Really need to prepare lots of things for a Quathlon... Machiam Change Parade in the transition area.... Well, thats how it is, I heard..

Weekends

Weekends now poses a new meaning.

Weekends are what everybody is looking forward to after 5-days of consecutive work/schools.

But in recnet weeks, Weekeneds, Especially Sundays, are the days when the worst news are revealed...

Is another Bank gonna make the news this sunday?
hmmm.... watch the news bah....

That's why the Banking sector is so exciting, and yet, so scary when a storm starts...
I'm lovin' it...

"Gossips"

what do you get when u put a group of ex-colleagues in the banking industry tog at a wedding banquet?
Endless exchange of "financial gossips".
Though as much as everyone tries to playdown on the "hype" now, its just not easy..

So, the principle to it,

"Say only the Good things"

"Hear only the good stuffs"

Jialat !!! 5 days left.....

Jialat liao lor.....
I didn't realise time pass so fast...
went to collect race-pack on sat for Quadthlon, then i was reminded i am only left with less than 1 week for my trgs.

And the Best part is, I thought it's "not-so-soon" yet, and have not really started on the trgs!!

And I have been procrastinatinig on sourcing for a decent Bike (racer) for the race....
Don't know if I'm lucky or what, bumped into Chen Qian who happens to be joining the event and had a spare bike to loan me!

He's my SAVIOUR!!!

Time to get my butt on the bike, to make sure i dont fall off during the course... (p.s. I have nvr ride on a racer ever in my 28 years.... wished me luck...)

Die la....how to train Swim, Blade, Cycle and run all in one week?
Heng still know basics of each...
Have to do "selective" trg to build up my confidence and strength for the weaker categories I guess....
But then, the more I run the distance and "procedures" thru my head for the race day, the more I started to get paranoid and getting cold feet liao...

All events equates to non-stop utilisation of the lower body muscle grp (read: Thighs, claves), for the grueling 36.5Km.

Chiam...., after 500m swim, maybe the leg is warmed up,
then blade 10Km, i think my legs will turn "嫩",
then 20Km cycle, by then, the legs will become jelly...
how to complete the 6km run??! Crawl? Can row anot??
Hope i dont crawl past the finishing point....

Thanks to the financial turmoil that makes me plough thru the night, or rather morning for the past weeks, that i clean forgotten abt my race preps...

Well, hope the remianing 5 days of intensive trg can pull me thru with a satisfactory result...
Now whats on my mind is Cycle, Cycle, Blade, swim, Cycle , Blade Swim..... and
carbo load, carbo load, and carbo load...

"Have you ever had this feeling

When you saw someone happily together

yet you are all along by yourself walking

on the street...

in the car...

on the boat...

or wherever you are..."

请你放心

an old song, but never sick of it...