性格 > 性別

A very brillant message sent across.
Saw it on a Taiwan TV Channel....
If only i could locate the TV commercial on the web....

"男人 不能哭?"

"女人 不能大笑?"

性別 = 性格?

..............................

性格 > 性別

Loved Driving in the rainy day. With Heavy downpour.
Cos the feeling of being inside the car,
felt protected...

Loved the rain. With heavy downpour.
Cos the feeling of walking in the rain
felt freedom....

" 承受不了你的善變 我知難而退.

心情再亂再壞再無奈也不掉一地淚. 心上的那個空缺不求人安慰.

從此忘情忘愛忘傷悲,忘掉你有多美. 讓自己沒有時間沒有機會沒有念頭要挽回"

Hadn't had such a good laugh since don't know 曾几何时...

Broadway Beng this year was really really Hilarious.
I'm glad I'm a Singapore native Hokkien, to be able to understand this "beautiful" language with a really good night laugh...
great show.

Was having quick dinenr at Marina Sq food court (Food Loft), and it actually brought back some little nice memories to me.

At the same corner of the food loft, was where a group of us ocassionally gathers for lunch after trainings.
This evening, saw the same corner, occupied by a grp of PA WV DBoaters.

Seems like that is the only corner, ideal for a big grp, and with an unspoken language, that corner seems to be "reserved" for such groups "gatherings"

Reminds me of those happy times during lunch then..
Brought a silly smile to me at the point...

過去很熟悉 , 現在不懂你

想看你眼睛 你卻給我背影

Am getting use to spending time with me and myself.
yeah, I think i am a born-loner.

I'm better off spending time alone. I think I felt better this way.
I Like.

我一个人吃饭 旅行 到处走走停停

也一个人看书 弹琴 自己对话谈心

"看着你是种享受

拥有你更是 感动

放一颗心 留在你的身边

每次离去 陪你入眠"

. . . , 一直存在

心里很多话想说说不出来　

但我想你一定都明白

时间过的好快　想念却不曾更改

现在的你是否幸福百分百　我应该怎么猜

Great "Buddies!"

I "stunned" for a sec when the question was posed to me;
"what do you do usually (besides work)?"

Cos I know my reply will be termed "no LIfe" in most people's mind.

Not really, to me.

I made 2 great buddies recently whom I spent my time with after work.

One is named "Gym".
He's been a fren/buddy for quite a while. But this year, he's been 不离不弃 spending the nights with me. Rain or shine.

Just got acquainted with a new buddy recently too.
His name is "Swim'.
I am begining to enjoy his company. He teaches me a new style, which i really enjoy picking up.
On days when I can't meet "Gym", I have "Swim" for companion.
Only flaw tho, appointment with "Swim" has to be cancelled if its a rainy day....

They have positive influence on me though. And definitely a "healthy" one on me, literally.

IMHO, I don't termed spending time with "them" equates "No Life", cos i am enjoying my company with "gym" and "swim". And they kinda becoming part of my "Life" now..
Like a drug, I feel uneasy if i dont get to see anyone of them for at least once in a week...

That's what I've been busy with recently.

At least , i know these are "friends" i can really depend on when i feel down.

=)

"The Flame, the desire, the passion comes from there, does not appeal to me anymore"

-- Amelie Mauresmo

Former World no.1 Woman Tennis player

In Remembrance

" And from now on, every dragon boat that sails with a Singapore flag, will sail in honor of these five young men"

Dr Vivian Balakrishnan

Minister for Community Development, Youth and Sports, Nov 2007

2 years may have passed, but memories of you guys stays forever.

Will you be flying the Singapore flag on your race boat in SRR Nov 2010 next year?

Medal Count

was on msn chat with a fren, who crazily clocked 10mins 35sec in vertical marathon climbing 73 storeys....

To me that was a crazy timing.
Asked how and why he did it,
"to collect medals".
I was like -_-"
Collected medal for 8 years liao...., and he is looking to get a perfect 10...

At that instance, i was looking at my medals hanging just near to me. After adding up all my medals from teh various sorts, then woul i be able to slightly surpass his medal count of 8..., which later further check, he has ANOTHER 8 from Stan Chart Marathon...
errmmmm....

I felt so belittled, giving up after 4 DB medals... thos these four medals means alot, given the fact that they were all garnered within one year.
At the moment, did felt like going back.. but then again.....

Well, maybe the day may come again, for that wood to be immersed in water once again....?

Great Expectations

I learnt and I experienced for myself, expectations and disappointment are directly correlated.

This year SRR, not as a rower, but as a coswaint for the Team.
It was partly a promised I made to myself anyway, last year, when the unfortunate occurs.
Why not we cox our own boats.
No more wrong lanes, no paddle fights.

As a paddlers , the expectation to perform and win races are high.

And when these expectations are not met, the disappoint are high... if not higher...

As a Coswaint, the expectation are different. You want the boat to have the least drag, the "straight-est" course and the motivation to the paddler. You feel great when the boat glides.

With that, there are no more regrets.

The Team "flew" the boat, the feeling was great.

While, I made it , and promised fulfilled.
I Cox, no wrong lanes, and I must admit, the boat was awesome powered by the Paddlers from Team P.A.Ls (Paddlers Against Limits)
Of course, being out of touch with the paddle and water for 3 months, there is no reason for me to be paddling...
That adrenaline , from coxing the boat alongside the other 4 boats side by side for the full 300m, it certainly was as "high" as paddling alongside these teams as a paddler.

No doubt, this team has turned stronger, slowly but surely. 3 heats, we were fighting seats by seats for the full course. In National open Categories.
That's better than sex!

X:各位旅客您好，这里是服务台失物招领中心。
有旅客在第七月台寻获笑容两个，在博爱座上寻获良心一枚。
尚待领取的还有友谊、恐惧、单纯。请遗失的旅客尽速至本处取回。
若逾时无人认领，我们将全数移至过期仓库储存

L：你好
X：你掉了什么啊？
L:我掉了 勇敢跟坚强。

X:没有。不然，留一下你的电话和姓名，我帮你广播一下。
L:喔。


旅客1：不好意思，我的拥抱掉了。
X:那你要不要再去找一个新的啊？



旅客2：小姐，我的梦想......
X：又是你啊！没有人捡到你的梦想。



旅客3：请问有人捡到童年吗？
X：这种过期的东西，我们通常都会直接丢掉。



旅客4：请问有没有人捡到爱情？
X：那边的垃圾桶里有一些一夜情，你要吗？

旅客5：小姐，我的初吻找到了吗？
X：我不是跟你说过，没有人找到吗？这么想要的话，那我的给你好了。


旅客6：小姐。
X：什么事？
旅客6：小姐，你的笑容，掉了。
X：. . . . 那你有捡到吗？


L：请问，我的勇敢跟坚强找到了吗？
X：还是没有人找到哎。不然，我再帮你广播一次好吗？
L：谢谢。


X：亲爱的旅客，您好。这里是服务台失物招领中心。
有一位旅客梁文音小姐，她遗失了勇敢和坚强。
这两样物品对她来说非常的重要。若是您捡到了，请你赶快送到服务台来。
因为，她不是你想象的那么勇敢。



好多我都失去...

你有失去了哪一些?

我不是你想像的那麼勇敢

每個人都有夢 幸福總站在最遠方

心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手擁抱

誰的心是我最後一站

我強問我自己 現在還沒有個答案

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

多想讓你知道我也要個伴

放下討厭武裝 像個孩子一樣

單純的把愛情放在你心上

http://www.youmaker.com/video/sa?id=e0962d18e8f4440ea4b4495bf2e03b34001

"181" 俱乐部

Birthday/events with a theme makes gathering so much more fun...

For once since dont know when, I Dont feel "out of place" when taking pictures with everyone STANDING up..
Haa. I felt so NORMAL for my height ....! Thank God!

"Avg Height: 181 cm?"


Those Pearly Whites!


男人有權"盼可愛" 哦...


Very nice cosy little eatery to nuah and catch up.
Nothing much to offer in terms of food, but the whole place is like a nursery Ryheme kinda place... Thisk its called "Hairloom & Caramel" thingy at Shaw Tower...

10:30pm 的飛機場跑道

Witnessing flights takes off and landing one-by-one at such close proximity can be so fascinating.
Hearing the thunderous roar of the air-crafts' engine can be so "high".
Trying to identify the different airline can be so interesting.

Seeing so many makes and models of air-crafts in such a short duration can be so entertaining.

"Flight-watching: can be such an enjoyable "past-time".

I didnt even realise its over an hour spent, literally clinging on to the gate, trying to get as near to the runway as possible.

Only crazy people like us can spend the friday night, watching these aircrafts at Changi airport runway, landing...., taking off.....

ahh.....It soothes even the savage beast...

Blame it on the weather, man!

Feeling just like how the song depicts..
Literally, and figuratively...

".... the rain goes on (on and on again)...."

我真的累了...

我真的好累了...

Sawasdee-krap

"Welcome to the Land of the 7 deadly sins!"

Here i Come.......! (Finally)

"Lust"

"Gluttony"

"Greed"

"Sloth"

"Wrath"

"Envy"

"Pride"

Have you Ever....?

To really love a woman, to understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought, see every dream
An' give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman



When you love a woman
You tell her, that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
'Cuz she needs somebody
To tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really, really ever loved a woman?
Yeah
To really love a woman, let her hold you
Til' you know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her, really taste her
Til' you can feel her in your blood
An' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
'Cuz she needs somebody
To tell her that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really
Really, really ever loved a woman?

Oh
You've got to give her some faith, hold her tight
A little tenderness, you gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
You really gotta love your woman, ya
And when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
'Cuz she needs somebody
To tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really, really ever loved a woman?
Yeah

Just tell me have you ever really
Really, really, ever loved a woman?
Oh
Just tell me have you ever really
Really, really, ever loved a woman?

Everytine...

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby


I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

我不要你的承諾,不要你的永遠

只要你好好久久愛我一遍

就算虛榮也好 貪心也好

哪個男人對愛 不自私 不奢望

我不要你的承諾 不要你的永遠

只要你真真切切愛我一遍

就算虛榮也好 貪心也好

最怕你把沉默 當做對我的回答...

Crush

A: why am i getting upset over his action?

B:because you Cared alot for him. Because YOU'VE fallen for him?

A:IMPOSSIBLE! he's not my ideal kinda guy. Definitely not d one i would stay tog til death do us part. We cant convince as a couple too.

B:Then its just a crush, i suppose...

A:It better be. Else it may turn ugly...



So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me

It's just a little crush
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing
Not like everything I do depends on you

再會吧, 我的......

yz decides.

放下木漿 , 立地成......懶人!

後會有期!

曾經滄海-娃娃(金智娟)

“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云。”

这句话的意思：经历过无比深广的沧海的人，别处的水再难以吸引他；除了云蒸霞蔚的巫山之云，别处的云都 黯然失色。

Full meaning (全意）

Quadthlete before that Big "3" O

Adding on to "medals count", tho' its only a Finisher Medals.. it marks a 2nd Quadthlon completed, conquered, with pride.

I am gonna repeat this again, that this will be the last time I will join the Quadthlon..
Remember I also swore the same thing last year, and then again,....
Haiz.....

Ok, this time is definitely the last... too torturous lah.. Pay so much and subject myself to self-torture.... =(

2h 36 Mins, compared to last year's 2hr 21 Mins.
不認老都不行哦...

Anyway that's it, being there, done that, conquered it.
At least a Quadthlete now before I hit my Big "3" O....

應該是沒有什麼遺憾了!

Quadthlon 2009

One more day to the event date....

Ok, I have been slacking... Out of the four legs, i can only say the cycling leg was been trained...

Other than that, have only swim a few ocassion, havent been running for ages... and behold, havent blade for atleast 2 months???

And I have to complete the 20km blading leg after a short swim.....

Just hope i dont kena cramp dring the 2hours plus of race.... I foresee a tough challenge, altough the distances are not that intimidating... but on the prep part...

It's just becos of my laziness and procrastination....
Well, aim t finish it..

If can finish below 2hr 20 mins, then its a great bonus.. but I seriously doubt so... cos I was more prepared last yr ncompared to this year...

Hmm.. I thought I swear to myself last year that was the last time I am gonna do a Quad... Why am I subjecting myself to such suffering....??

人真是賤骨頭...
I got a feeling that I am gonna feel like "freebie" on race day...
Bearing the tag 1-4-1 (1 for 1)....
What a number... Must buy 4D....

很簡單...

忘了是怎麼開始　也許就是對你　有一種感覺

不可能更快樂　只要能在一起　做什麼都可以

快樂的三小時
=)

Superstar....

I don't know what it is, That makes me feel like this.

I don't know who you are.
But you must be some kind of superstar

Cus you got all eyes on you no matter where you are.
You just make me wanna play

Cus I really wanna rock with you

I'm feeling some connection to the things you do

It all starts with the ball

它終於從美國安全的抵達了....

"For 89 years, Mikasa Sports has been creating and perfecting the most important part of the game: the ball.

We understand the passion and inspiration it takes to be an athlete.
We put that sme passon and inspiration, coupled with the best technology, into every ball make.

Mikasa.
It all starts with the ball."

"What happened"

"nothing"

"sure?"

"yeah, nothing, Just feeling emo."

紅燈沒有阻止我闖禍

也許當我擁抱這個快樂了
結果就註定會寂寞了

希望絕望的, 複雜的心情背後
有許多眼淚要說

當我決定讓你吻我了, 並不表示我是你的了

愛你只是一個實驗, 看你多會表演

Bye-Bye.........

男人最痛

誰說男人不痛

只是不輕易表露

其實,男人最痛

心突然的隱隱痛
如空穴來了陣寒風
沒法強忍看你偷泣的眼
看你朝思夜盼　我再蠢都會懂

明知是仍捨不得你
我亦寧願讓情有疾而終
若你要走你只需講一句
對我恨心地去　說愛今天告終

怎麼偏躲於漆黑中
讓我永遠看你看不通
再不想擔心也不想一切被動
難忍再次偶爾於街中
望你忐忑因他出現失控
而男人最痛　男人最痛算這種

長苦為何不肯短痛
我問如因為難棄這情種
願你放心我會好好的過
我怎麼的做我　也勝過今天似瘋

情緒

我一個人吃飯 旅行 到處走走停停

也一個人看戲 逛街 自己對話談心

孤單 是一個人的狂歡
(i.e. 孤單一個人是快樂的)

狂歡 是一群人的孤單
(i.e. 一群孤單的人在一起就會狂歡)

心情

忐忑不安的情緒

患得患失的心情...

要如何撫平?

不想想太多,卻難以壓抑七上八下的心情

"只是過度期,因該很快就過去的"

不要想太多. 一切就只是暫時性的迷戀

凡事都有修復點

快點終結它吧.....

何時?

Gatherings

Trust me to forgot abt a former fellow uni-coursemate's church wedding on saturday...
Totally slipped my mind and I even went for my morning DB training.
Only realised i missed the wedding ceremony after like a good 6 hours overdue.....

What's more, the venue of the church where the wedding is taking place, is located just 200m away from my house... -__-"

Really having poor and failing memory... Sign no.1 of Ageing??? Nooo..........!!

Well, at least i din't forget abt the dinner with the former kopi-gang after each trainig back in "those days".. While, not exactly the same grp, but almost there.. hahaa.

Thanks to weiyin for making the arrangement...
Well, its a "blessing" that in any group of frens that you may have, there would be someone who makes the effort to gather the "forces" together, in a bid to keep the group intact despite everyone 個奔東西, and gradually loses contacts.

Fortunately, we always have such people in the group, that bands the group tog.

From my JC days, we have "大姐" who keeps the small group of us intact, and we never failed to reminiscene the JC days and the hilarious moments of (who else but) our tutors...

From the uni days, though we hall niners no longer stayed under one roof, but Fiona nvr fails to get everyone tog , and exchange "data" so that everyone is updated with the "latest" news (or rather, gossips) of fellow hostelites.. hahaa...

Am glad that in DB, the very first Team I was with, we had someone like that.Weiyin, Keeping the group tog even though we are all no longer rowing tog as a team for a year or more, and yet still very much cherish the moments tog...

Oh, and i just realised there's something in common on all these Gatherings...
The Girls are the one holding the Group together.....
Cool.....

有點不對的感覺又回來了....

felt numb, 毫無衝勁, 沒有一絲的快活.

似乎覺得早上爬起來是種累贅.

再也辦不到每周兩次的routine.

一個字: "累"

"一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒 "

Fong Seng

Have you been to a place you once used to be, but now it has changed...
It brings back memories of the past...

dropped by "Fong seng" in a bid to catch supper.
Realised that the Fong Seng now has changed drastically... Its so organised and nest.
That street is no longer bustling..

It felt wrong....

Missed the old Fong seng "street", though i wasnt even there often in teh past, cos i am a true blue NTU hostelite, hibernating in the mountain in the far west end...

wished I had taken down the pictures of that street back then...
Its so "organised" now, it felt really "scary"...
So "Uncrowded" ......

愛與被愛

被愛是幸福,

愛人是痛苦

往往被愛不是你所愛的人

你愛的人往往不是最愛你的人

被愛還是幸福嗎?

愛人會是痛苦嗎?

全村的都出來了 !

失戀學

"我們忘了學怎麼失戀

移情別戀治不好失眠"

失戀學

飄洋過海...

我在等你喔...

千里迢迢 從美國....

我愛 .....

"为你我用了半年的积蓄飘洋过海的来看你"

Do's and Don'ts (on-Road/off-road)

No.1 thing that drivers dislike, is having a passenger that tells you "Turn Right/left NOW"
For good-ness sake, try being behind the wheel, and get last minute "orders"

Even F1 driver can't make a quick turn withing split seconds. And please, the road is not yours alone, even when you want to make a last minute turn, you have to be mindful of car, beside , behind(yes, behind you) and oppposite!

Its not like pedestrain ok, want to turn left the turn left, want to turn right straight away "ka-kana pusing"...

And also seriously, personally, when a driver turn up the volume of his favourite songs on teh radio/sound system, it means he/she PREFER to listen to the song then to hear your talk..
So, please dont try to beat the volume of the radio/mp3 by speaking even Louder....

I wonder, how do you break a conversation when it gets stagnant, in the case when a coffee / talk-cock / catch up session started to develop into a "pour-your-work-grudege" and "business-lingo" onto the ocffee table session..

Err..., if its a casual catchup session, please put your work related topic at home, or lock it up in the office.
Everyone had enough of work related topics at least 8hrs-a-day, 5-days a week..
Would appreciate if its really more on silly topics and light-hearted issue...
unless of cos you are in a bitchy profession and lotsa gossip to share, then by all means...!

People should have the courtesy and be mindful of what to say depending on the company and the purpose of a "coffee/catch-up session".
I am not meeting an insurance agent, so dont need to talk about "Money-mind" stuffs....

"Pleasure is Desire Fulfilled"

Blogger Down.... =(

Stupid Blogger.com got application error in creating post...
I can't format my post or add picture.... SIANZ................!

Stupid Blogger.com!

Double Life

How amazing some people can live 2 Lives, and gone un-noticed.Or majority, because it's gone "unnoticed"?

Doesn't it excites you if you could lead a double life and gone unnoticed?

Double Life, i.e. 2 lifes, 2 you, with contrasting characters, but still the same One biological you.
As though Living in 2 world, with 2 different sets of activities, goals, objectives?

What's the main "motivation" that gets one into a double life scenario?
Curiosity? and Addiction thereafter?
之后不能自拔？

Or was it a choice?
Because Life is short, you live once, so you wished to live in 2 different "world" in one lifetime...
What about Multiple lives?
Can you juggle it?

Sounds exciting isn't it?
Make sure you can handle it...

“分手快乐 祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的

分手快乐 请你快乐

挥别错的才能和对的相逢

离开旧爱 像坐慢车

看透彻了心就会是晴朗的

没人能把谁的幸福没收

你发誓你会活的有笑容”

Austcham 10Km DB challenge 09 - ALS awareness

12 Gals out of the 18 rowing crews rowing thru 10km non-stop under the scorching sun.

All in support for creating the awareness of Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (A.L.S.)
- is a progressive,[1] fatal, neurodegenerative disease caused by the degeneration of motor neurons, the nerve cells in the central nervous system that control voluntary muscle movement.

Well, in simple layman's term, if you've watched the true story of "One Litre of Tears", you get an idea of what that disease does...

No mean feat for the Team, with huge support from Team OCBC rowers who helped steered teh ship.
The Team enmerge 19th out of the 25 placing, considering 12 ladies out of the 18crew.

Kudos!

I splurge

Ok, I'm a sucker for Mizuno products for obvious reason....

How tro resist when its my fave colours/design, and at a sale discount with a further 18% discount bringing the cost down to just $100 for a Decent Mizuno Wave Rider 11.

Of cos, Model is quite outdated, thats why the Sale price.

But then, its a big upgrade for me from my humble SAF new balance ever since teh very first pair in 1999.... a good 10 years...

cannot afford Asics, Mizuno still good. I'm a Die-hard fan somemore.... How to resist....??

Mizuno Wave Rider 11

Err.... I didnt intend to buy more... But dont know why, i wouldnt fail to be drawn to Indoor (shoes) volleyball section in the Mizuno store everytime to see any new release...

"Suay, Suay", i need to see this new release for Volleyball indoor - court shoe..

Mizuno has been reowned for its Indoor Vball shoes, but this one i swear is by far the nicest... with good "technology"

It would not do justice if I let this shoe slipped by... The colour, the design, again, Love at first Sight! and also, at discount of 28% !!!

of cos, the price is higher compared to the running one... but who cares! Its new release!! with 28% discount!!!

ermm.. since i havent got a decent pair for running and Indoor , i think its only justifiable that i get "Both..."

Yes, i bought both at a bargain of $230. Very Very very satisfied and Happy. Worth the "bleed" from my pocket.

I will eat more bread instead of sushi....

Fave Colours /Brands/ functionality.... I love!

Mizuno Wave Lightning 5

There's no hidding I'm foot-feetish....
Countless slippers, shoes and now, 2 sports shoes at one go....
oh oh......

"Sex is addictive.

Like a drug"

--Anonymous

Bored ard Cars

E.R.P - Everyday Rob People

Clutch, Brake, Pedal under the neon blue light

Met ivan on the street today.
In fact, the first person that i got to know who guided me or rather acted as my "guardian" in the Volleyball team when i first joined the CC Team to learn abt playing volleyball.

That was like some 9 - 10 years back?
Its the Singapore indoor Volleyball National Open again.

Regretfully, I only had a chance to compete in the Nationals.
It was indeed a very different feel..
In a 9m X 18m court, which turns so small among the corwds on teh gallery.
All eyes on the 12 players.
Stressed, but really a great kind of feel.

Wonder if any chance to relicve that again....

魂不守舍？

something is wrong...
Isit an omen?

for past 2 days in a row, already met with 3 near accidents...
1st one was a near hit to the rear
2nd was a mis-check while reversiving, nearly hit a guy...
3rd was .... rather, a hit...
Fortunately nothing serious.

it was a scrap past...

hmm.. 失魂落魄？ 魂不守舍？
Am i losing my soul....

I should avoid driving as much as possible, until I get my soul back....

Trade

If your soul is tradable.

Would you trade your soul?

Pissed off..

Went for Trg today, and for the first time in my 3 yrs of rowing, I was damn pissed while rowing...

Pissed with the thoughts, "What the hell am I here?"
It was a gruelling 7 km continuous row (or loonger), and what pissed me off was the lack of Team spirit and effort put in.

It was a boat of 18 people, and I swear there were not 18 people rowing.
If somebody can row thru the over 7m with ease and keep spouting nonsense and joke around, either this person is a superman/superwoman or this person simply going thru the motion thru'out the 1hr row...

Sadly, I would say its the latter that pissed me off.

This was/is not any fun row. If people can joke ard and going thru motion while other team-mates carry his/her/their weight, I think they are better off been off-loaded.

Fuck...
this incident just further puts me off from rowing with the Team.
Its just so wrong...

Either my tolerance level has largely fallen or simply the passion has started to wear off.......

I felt so out of touch with the world, although I am only "locked" away for 4 days in the western part of S'pore..

No News paper, no time for TV news, not much time for internet...

sianz... felt my life so wasted...
*sigh*, 2 more days, and I shall find myself more "useful"...

Finally can take a breather for this weekend and update myself with the "Outside World" and get in-touch with "reality".

It feels so good....

$400 - $200 = $200 + $200?

darn...
this year, I missed the additional $200 bucks right under my eyes again with a 6 seconds lag...

Dont know shd rejoice or what....
Last year, I missed that additional 'Free Money" by the 'garnment' by 8 secs.
This year by 6 secs...

*sigh*..
$200 easy mosny...
Imagine I could have earned $400 for just 1 hour of my time... More profitable than being a Forex trader?

*sigh*, looking on the bright side, its a 2secs mprovement leh.. even tho i must admit that i slack this year and didnt train for it...

Ok, still got chance to get back that $200 more....
Better luck next time....
At least I still got $200 "free money" crediting to my account soon...
haha.. who says nothing is free in this world?
Can keep fit still got $$$..
The ONLY thing I like abt our Army.... lol

Do you wanna be a poet and write
Do you wanna be an actor up in lights
Do you wanna be a soldier and fight for love
Do you wanna travel the world
Do you wanna be a diver for pearls
Or climb a mountain and touch the clouds above
Be anyone you want to be
Bring to life your fantasies

Are you gonna be a gambler and deal
Are you gonna be a doctor and heal
Or go to heaven and touch God's face
Are you gonna be a dreamer who sleeps
Are you gonna be a sinner who weeps
Or an angel under grace

Yesterday Once more

Feeling nostalgic...

No more pictures, for I have been uploaded upteem times...


Carpenters - Yesterday Once More

Ironic

I stayed under the shade for the whole of last weekend.
Something very unusual for someone whose weekend never fails to be busking under the Sun.

I chose to be "under the shade", in a bid to get more quality rest.
Quality rest translate to no strenous activities, and gyming takes place in a shaded air-conditioned surroundings.

Sounds "pampered" yeah?

Ironically, when the clock struck 10pm on Dear Sunday night, a severe headache hit me.. Or should I termed it migraine to give it more "justice"?
Those that you would normally get for being under the hot sun for long hours...
I don't think the flourescent lamp in my house is that strong...?
By just "Nuahing" on the sofa for 4 hours, a headache can develop?
Ironic isn't it? All that "trouble" to avoid the sun and "strenuous" activities for 2 days in a bid to get more rest, all I get was a plaguing headache that disturbed me throughout my sleep.
Had to curb it with Panadol the next day morning to keep it at bay...

*Sigh*
Isn't it Ironic, don't you think?


Ironic-Alanis_Morissette

Threshold

chance upon a little article in the newspaper, which leads me to a blog of yet another budding young local director.

What drew me to the article first was the headline.
An unusual one which surprises me...

毕业代表致词提“抗议“

南大澄清误会 学生接受

To me, i considered it the news of the century here in Singapore...

Graduating Student/Director Loo Zihan very directly lash back at the NTU "censorship" board during convocation in his valedictorian Speech just recently.(uncensored)

Result: NTU "calrifies" or rather "Apologies"??

That's a first i supposed.

Not that i have anything against NTU, definitely not when They were the one that issued my piece of Degree..

Impressed at the speech.

Just becos of a big hoo-ha over a poster for his thesis film by the NTU board...

I guess his threshold of tolerance has been violated, hence the fabulous speech..!

Full article in Chinese
Article in English

IPHONE

Damn well-edited.

Its Hilarious...!

Can be used as a Sing-Tel IPhone commercial...

hibernate

I shouldn't have procratinate...

The aftermath is scary...

I did felt quite disturbed after seeing the letter.

Time to be more self-discipline in my own management style..

It can be done. Just that I have been procratinating it...

A little time spent in managing and it reveals that its not a really big issue....

Damn... time to go into "Hibernation".

The consequence of pro-long procrastination.

Its a disease isn't it?

And the cure?

Reflection, action, accumulation thru hibermation.

I know, its not even winter yet...

call it advance-accelerated hibernation...

I need the accumulation..

M.I.A.....

翅膀

Woke up to a nice melody rining in my head.
Don't know how this song came about to me in the morining. Maybe I dreamt of something related to it?


Then the mood was totally changed when i read, or rather , browsed thru' the papers in the morning.
Read abt a 'bad' news on the newspaper headlines.
Damn pissed off with the news..

ermm.. not the Jakarta bomb blast.
Maybe bcos its no longer a "rare" sight and happenings for hotels to go off by some perverted mind-twisted individuals who bombs for fun.

These people are sick, and should die by having the bomb ignited even befoe they can go near anyone. Best, the bomb dont kill them immediately, let these suicide bomber suffer by losing limbs and slowly bleed to death.
Thats what they deserved and loved it , dont they?

Ok, forget about those sickos...
making me sound like an even sicker person.

Whats more annoying in the news is some idiot(s) who claims noble and abuse the public's kindness, sympathy, and cash, indulging in self-enjoyment.

What The F***.

Using donations for own gains. Buying properties, living the "atas" life, and even go DIVING!
Matbe even providing for another man.
F***!

TRUE

Made a "huge" committment today...
by Staying "TRUE to my heart", for another 3 more years.
on hindsight, think its still worth it... Imagine if they successfully take over Cali in Singapore like they did in Bangkok....
They almost got the Orchard branch.... hha.. try harder,still got high chance.. so close...
Then my $50/mth fees can access Cali outlets as well..., isnt that a huge Bargain??? hahahaha...

Hmm.. maybe they can consider adopting the following tag-line?

"Stay True to your heart, stay with True Fitness"
Corny huh...? -_-"

Furthermore, after getting a "first hand" experience with SSC gym, i can finally appreciate the vast difference between paying $50/mth and $2.50 per visit...

1.) I got a Deja-vu effect when i get into the Biggest SSC gym and saw that all the equipment were the ones Used in the army back in the 1990s... Err.. You can't even find it in the camps anymore these days.. think it was donated to them by the SAF?

2.) not to mentioned the weights and bars, are all rusted... really very turned-off.. oh, and you need to exercise the "Singapore-spirits" to quickly grab your weights, cos they are all in "limited editions" and "while stocks last"...

3.) whats more annoying, you have to gym witin a "yellow box" in the free weights area, means, u will get verbal warning when you stepped out of "the box" EVERYTIME for even less than 50cm range...

4.) imagine this... you forgot to take out the additional weights from the ez-bar, and the "gym aunty" can haunt u down within the gym to remind you to remove the additional weights...

5.) the gym space is so big but unfortunately vacant. Maybe they wanted to make space so that people can do shuttle run within the gym??

6.) number 1 reason why a member gym is better, you wouldnt really see queues building up at almost 70% of the equipments there...

Friday

本日も晴れ。異所なし
(Clear Day again today. No Disturbances)
Uneventful week, except that work volume starts to picks up. Does that spells the economy is picking up contrary to what the economist are forecasting?
I hope so...

Bonus. Job Security. Money....

The week ended off with a good note.
Because of great companys for a wonderful dinner.
Oh, and lotsa Ice-cream after that...Lots.....

Nice.....

Pho-bi-a

pho⋅bi⋅a [foh-bee-uh]
–noun
a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it.

Unknowingly, this has developed.

"Race-phobia."

An insignificant race, suffering a Significant defeat.

What could be more devastating...?

Mad World

Strike a chord?

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places,
worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere,
going nowhere

And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression,
no expression

.

.

When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world
mad world

I Dreamed a Dream

We emerged as a Silver medalist.

Felt so real , that I woke up in disappointment...
It's a dream...

I Dreamed a Dream....

(日有所思，夜有所梦？)

Confession of a Closeted-cheapo-shopaholic

Some may think, of all places, why do I find joy in shopping "there"..

Hahaa.. yeah, 2nd time there (since its opening), but I am already loving the "shopping" experience there..
Cos i can get almost anything, at really discounted prices... Really almost "Anything", if you can hunt well...
Anything includes Volleyball Net (ok, just the net, but i am already so fascinated by the sight of that in that store...)
Almost 2 hrs shopping there... would have gotten more stuffs, if not for the poor stock-replenishing system they have in place....
Come to think of it, its not really savings, cos you tend to buy more.. lots more, as individually the items are cheaper...

When the bills adds up... hmm...
But, you will be carrying bagfuls of deals home....

Hahaa...
I am begining to love shopping at Mustafa... (minus the crowd)...
Woohoo......
Once a week at least?? I think i am going again within the next 24hrs.....

Feel Good factor

Although it's no award winning artefacts.
It stills feels good to see your own works hanging up on the wall of an Art gallery.

How fascinatinig it is to stand beside your picture, over-hearing comments from the people who bother to stop, and appreciate the picture.

Even more so when you hear how they interpret your picture, teh way you intedned it to be...

I admit, Its enough an ego-booster already..

"High School" (Vietnam-Sapa)

Streets of Kyoto (Tokyo - Kyoto)

赤い糸

Its Back..... !

Its been a year of departure since the last session.

Now, It's back to the BEACH!
No just the sun , sand and the sea, but more appropriately, its back to beach volleyball.

Sounds exaggerating, but, i think its what I really enjoyed most.
Just the true company of Vball kakis,
just for Vball.

Something which i picked up my confidence from, something I am proud to be associated with, and company whom i've stick with for 5 years, or longer?
All in the name of volleyball.

No other agendas.

I like.

What the hell am I doing here?

Creep - Radiaohead

Everything started to feel so different...

The whole mood is wrong.
It has lost the competitive mood of yester-year...
Felt as though gradually, it is heading in another direction...
A deja-vu effect. A direction that doesn't align with the original grp of members.

It felt like this.
That group which fought competitively, trained competitively and think competitively, seems to be vanishing.
Gradually, all that seems to be replaced....
Replaced by one that takes things more easily.

One which the game becomes a means itself to get people together for other functional purposes.

As oppose to one that gets together becos of the game.

One where dinners/lunches are gather without leaving the topic of racing strategy, positioning, how to improve, what more races to head for, etc...
It was a 90 - 10 allocation back then. Which could be why we were second to "that Team".

Now, it seems like a different agenda has surfaced.
An genda that places victory as secondary.
An allocation of 50-50? or even 30-70?

That wasn't what i had in mind back then.
That wasn't how it used to be back then.

As it evolves, it just doesn't seem right to me.. It has seemingly evolved to one familar Team which i left way back then...

Evidently, the committment to competitive trg has changed.
Did people congrgate for the training and achievements or for the "gathering" and fun?

Ever since i first tasted the competitive climate in this game, my main focus and aim was to be competitive in it. Spare me the leisure and PR. I'm not there for the recreation anymore.

It was for the competitive spirirt that the team held and formed unknowingly thru the many hard-fought battles and medals haul , more than anything.

The fighting spirit, on-boat, and off-boat.

is losing... was lost...
Was "stunned" when this Team was proclaimed as "less competitive" and "more leisure" now in a bid to get more people...

In times of "survival", everything evolved. Evolved not for the better, unfortunately.

Probably that signals a mis-fit on my end.

Am just trying to find that bit of remaining competitive spirit on-board, and hold on to it as long as I can.
Not sure how long, before it became overwhelmed...
For now, I felt already 50% of it is lost...

It's gradually losing that same meaning to me.

I rather have a competitive one... Not one that only gets serious on competition days, and backed with lotsa consolation and speeches on the aftermath,which were all threwn behind after that.

Not one which puts competition as secondary.

That means, people train for one purpose.

To taste the victory as a Team. Not as a fun game.

To me, It's not fun anymore.

Has it been "corrupted"?

A Game that loses its competitive edge?
Or rather, a Team that loses its competitive edge.

If goals are mis-aligned, it became a struggle to hang onto it.

when personal agenda comes into play.
Just for a bit longer, but how long can i hold onto it til...?

A question for myself to reflect..
"Why am I still there"

"what the hell am i doing here...?"

I guess, its for the undeserving lost last year which we hope to regain in 6 months time. But judging from the look of it, it seems distance...

Love is innocent.

The world is not.

United SG Dragons - The Putrajaya Ones...

Yet another first appearance by the United SG Dragons. This time in KL.

hmm.. we need to improve lah.... 不堪一击！ -_-"

Enjoyed the weekend that just passed.

It felt like a race like no other.
Thou the team that went up north was small, but everything felt good.
Overseas trip is really fun, even tho i didnt showed it explicitly.
I wished I could live like that forever.... just doing what you like, care-free...

********Was awed by the comercial posted by a friend on Facebook.

It's supposed to be a Hair Shampoo commercial, which I couldn't really see any tiny bit of link, until the final part... abit hilarious there though...

Well, must say its an inspiring and meaningful commercial.
More importantly, it brings across the message, not to see things at face value, don't stereo-type.

you dont have to be like this, and like that to belong to that genre of activities or surroundings.

Rather than asking: "Why am I different from others?"
ask yourself: "Why... ... do you have to be like others?"

*Hmm... I'm switching to pantene *